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Friday, November 24, 2006
a night after napfa test... well... i'm proud to say that i'd... failed in 2 stations... sit & reach and 2.4km... tt means, i failed the whole napfa... haiz... seriously damaged my body... aching everywhere... and i so stupid, didn't wear sport shoe to sch... where tt converse flat shoe... now got blisters... loLx... but don mention ethnically... i cheated by adding 5 more sit ups... haha... watever... a child from a poor stamina family is like that...
but... i'm only happy with my shuttle run... can't believable... i ran a timing of 11.6 secs... loLx... but don know why... sitting at the stadium, waiting for the rain to abate... i have an urge to have my brother by my side... oh... the days without him, i had been peevishing all my way... hemm here hemm there... haiz... like a missy... haiz... missing him... and i know he wont miss him even i begged him... haiz... men are jerks...
in addition that i wan to say, the testers are quite good-looking (one eg is tt shortie and the pull-up tester... haha...) but tt were minority... haha... sports athlete mah... haiz... think too much...
anywhere, have some great time slacking in the lab before attending the napfa test... lack of the spur to focus on projects... the weather was just too great to sleep... fidgeting with the internet, chatting... den, my china sup chatted with me.... in english... haiz... whenever i'm in school, she will chat with me... whenever i'm at home, she can't even bother with me... anywhere, hope she is well... baby is delievering to this world at around april... so happy... i'm going to be an "oversea auntie" lor....
then, someone added me in msn... first come to my mind... hmm... i think is her... the child from "cutecute.com" or i think "fatfat.com" family... haha... tt's kid's language... haha... btw, she was my cousin... hmm... going to sec 1 next year... scored quite well... troubling with what school hopefully to be posted into... however, some facts she doesn't believe that i'm a NA student with aggregate of 184... loLx... so wat with 184 score... met a gang of trustful friends... grew up (mature) together... then knowing the consequences of being "too-friendly"... but pathetically to say, one advantage is, i no need to trouble so much of entering to which school... haha...
perhaps with her aggregate of 235, hopefully she can enters temasek sec (her choice) or st' anthony or pasir ris crest... i'm a bit bias in pushing her for my ex-sec sch... well... hasn't been improving... it just happened to let me see too much "negatives" about the school... but still can consider lar... so i can pass my un-used exercise books to the next generation... haha... loLx...
watever it is, you will meet plenty of challenges in the future... most importantly, you must know how to overcome those obstacles... and by that, prepare yourself for the sloping-up stages towards your future... a good school doesn't mean anything... the aiming for good school is the ablilty to develop your personal character and allows you to enhance the capability that's within you... even you will have to make many sacrifices, make sure you don't regret on one fine day... withstand your will, challenge yourself and prove to everyone you can succeed... one important recommendation for you is, from the first day of your sec sch life, note your surroundings, especially your classmates, down in somewhere... because when you graduate, you will reach that generation of reminiscing the first day we met... haha... how nerd we are... what is our first conversation...
you know why suddenly i became a professor... because my cousin might be reading my blog... gracious me... during my days, i don even know how to define "technology"... everything happened with a reason... everyone's needs and wants are unappeasable...
well, i have to make a sincere apology... setting a bad example of a group mate... i can't convince myself that i'm doing a great project... there were too many loops to amend and improve... i was helpless... we are considered as a group... but it is difficult to work as an individual because we have to pace fast in meeting surging different targets depending on one's ability... i failed to be a good group mate... i disappointed my mp supervisor... BUT, i will never forgive mself... you can say me attitude problem... but, those "incapability", "disrespect", "miscommunication", "selfishness", "irrespondsive"... perhaps some others more... these were the things that bind us APART... but if i will to make a last wish, i hope that the world who hates her can be her friends for a day... just to let her know that, she is such a detester...
last but not least, i'm dead beat... haha... lastly, i have a word to say to these 2 persons - feng sheng and chun leng... i'm sorry... i don noe both of you were saying 'hi' to me when we rubbed our shoulders at the concourse level... i'm sorry... i ignored both of you because i'm shy... loLx... haiz... haiz... but this napfa test, i have a deep feelings... which is... such a rare opportunity to bring us together... we had been coursemates for almost 3 years, but we never had the opportunity to know another dimensions of each other besides our 1st year orientation... we never had the "occurrence" that sparked our first conversation... haiz... today i said "hi" to hazel on the bus... you see... then i won't be so dumbfounded about myself today... god...
------ cherish =\
darlin left a note at 11:36 PM
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